After posting yesterday’s blog,on my need to make Manwich, I
received a personal note from an old friend, a comment regarding unrequited
love. He had attached a very sad song.
I sat this morning,
organizing my desk, sorting through papers, tid-bits of notes that I jot down
when I get ideas for writing, looking at old photographs. I had Sting playing
my favorite album, a song played, the words were similar to that sad song he had sent. I thought back to my freshman year. I never knew how my friend felt.
I was young and foolishly
head over heals in love with his friend.
It was the reason I was so far from home at a college I had no business
attending. When I was dumped, he stuck by me, taught me to play the guitar and
was a big brother to me until I made my way back home to Virginia and another University. We lost touch and somehow reconnected through
Social Media, you know the story.
I didn’t always see the easy path and certainly didn’t see
what was right in front of me back in the early 80’s. Too blinded by being dumped, I never would
have believed that this young man had feelings for me.
We are cautioned constantly to plan for everything: look
before you leap, buy life insurance, plan for your financial future. We tell our children not to fall for the
first girl/boy that comes along “they will break your heart.” We cautiously tell them, remembering our own
heartbreak.
Well what’s the fun in that?
We need these experiences to grow, to learn, to live. I certainly did. I learned several times. Looking back I have a few regrets, the good
out shines the bad by far. I have 5
beautiful children and I would not have them had I not made some of those bad
choices and then tougher choices.
I have chosen a much different path than that of my
friend. I am a different person
now. I have to keep moving forward, no
looking back in regret.
You are right old friend, “it ended long before it could
begin”. No regrets.
Peace. NEPB
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